Insights

This morning I had a great conversation with a friend. I had called her to catch up and find out about her vacation. The conversation did not go as planned, kind of like life sometimes :) I shared with her my many attempts to "let go" and let the universe take over. So, since I have decided to do that, I have had times where that seems to go well and times where it does not. One of the things I noticed is that it's all well and good to let go until something happens. I don't have enough money for something, I have to pay a bill, I have to transfer money from my savings, etc. So, I keep letting go and letting go each time one of these circumstances comes up. It seems a bit like a struggle. And I go back and forth on what to "do" about it.

The great thing about sharing is that something new can arise in the conversation. I realized that there are people in my life who are contributing in ways that I don't want to admit because then I would be present to how much they love and care about me. And for me there is something wrong when that happens, like I can't take care of myself. So, I am inventing the possibility of being grateful. Here are some things I am grateful for:

Gary - the love of my life who accepts me for who I am and loves me no matter what
Jacob - my shining guiding light who is the most wonderful son in the whole world
My Mom - the most amazing wonderful woman who is always there for me
My sister - She is my best friend and always makes me laugh
My dad - a wonderful man who is an inspiration for making a difference
My step-dad - an amazing person with great wisdom and guidance who tells it like it is
My friends - who are always there for me and listen to me as bigger than I think myself to be

That is my first stab. There is a longer list coming......

XOXOXOXO Gina